we belong there.
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Monday, 25 February 2008
crazy, crazy.
If I don't say this now I will surely break. Hasn't been the best of weeks, it's definitely possible if I lose all hair and start talking to myself everyday. I've so many deadlines to meet, IF I knew being a designer plus the photographer in this almost-tak-boleh-harap aka unreliable school magazine editorial team, I wouldn't have submitted my commitment in. One of them just blew my top off, beat the hell of my littlest patient nerve and I feel so bad already. But c'mon, if you're reading this, I hope you understand. You've no idea what we're all rushing for. You don't get the mails, you don't feel the pressure, and yet you come around again and again expecting me to spoon feed you, to tell you how things go about. I ain't no messenger.. We share this task together, you've had my share of initiatives, I voice things out whenever I've doubts, I think you're capable of doing that too. That was just way too much already cause in this, I don't see your effectiveness, you're only given a board, so simple, JUST DO IT. I'm sorry, but I need you to see my standpoint. Don't take advantage. Sigh.
Magazine layout's deadline's this coming Wednesday initially, but was chief editor being unrealistic, or is it just me and the foul mood? Sigh once more. Assignments are due soon too(I think) or even if they don't, I wouldn't want to rush at the very critical minute. Sigh once more.
On a lighter note, I went shopping yesterday despite the unapproved situations that's been constantly crazy, thus not allowing me to sit back a little. Shopping once more with Dee earlier today after school, yet I still don't feel okay/right. Maybe a bracelet from mr boyfriend would help? Or two? Or three? I want to vanish. Vanish power liquid O2, you know, the 'Trust Pink, Forget Stains' liquid detergent.
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Friday, 22 February 2008
i think.
Alicia Keys would make a really good-looking, very gorgeous man IF she was born a he.
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Thursday, 21 February 2008
I've yet to post something interesting but my brain isn't working well what with datelines/deadlines meetings magazines catching ups i have to eat right i have to sleep well i have to manage time well and so you see my mind's clouded so so so clouded this entry explains as you read along add your own punctuations while on the phone with dearest mr boyfriend i'm feeling really angry i don't know why must be the time of the month but its already over dammit damn school damn the quarterly crunch i dont want to put a fullstop here now never evil laughs muahaha
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Saturday, 16 February 2008
empty.
no matter where I am, what I do, how I smile so much, this unsettled feeling is inevitable. It is so, so, so dragged, I cannot go any further. I've realised what I am about to go through, it isn't really what I wanted initially.
my resilience has been stretched too far, I'm about to snap.
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Wednesday, 13 February 2008
udang.
I have a sudden craving for udangs. aka Prawns, still raw, still stinky. At their freshest, still alive, and whining. Eee? Yes, eee.
Haha, saya sudah gila.
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Sunday, 10 February 2008
last friday.
Last Friday I went downtown and drove the go-karts! I gave Fiz one hell of a ride, I have to say my driving skills were "SUPERB"!
As if.
I was one mentally unbalanced lunatic, I laughed so hard I think I lost my marbles. I lost all voice to laugh the moment those rides started swinging, shaking or whatever have you. Because, I didn't expect you, hafiz, to be such a ... funnything. I wanna go there and drive the go-karts again! Too bad, we didn't take pictures while we were at it. There were 7 other friends, they were cool people too! The talkative, the friendly, the smiley, the pretty, and this list goes on. And I got a face tan. Fagg.
And this coming week, I have lying-down-on-floor-to-doodle-on-paper tomorrow, Hot date, as Rara name it on Tuesday, Poster&NoticeBoardDesign&Magazine'sNameDesign Meeting with Dee on Wednesday, PICNIC with jelly on Thursday!! And a something else on Friday. Facial appointment with mum on the Saturday and Sunday school on sunday! After which, school reopens, and Old Chang Kee, here I come!
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Friday, 1 February 2008
zoo.
A duck flew above my head today, so, so, so, so near, I think it did that on purpose.
