so be gentle.
"I'm very much in love with books! JODI PICOULT'S especially!" I said meekly. There was quite a pause. The words fell with a hollow flatness on to the granite floors, like so many wooden nickles.
"Okay," Preta said with a half-smile, half-giggle.
I want to believe that there indeed was a blessing in disguise as to why my conscience suggested rejecting the rockstar's invitation to play pool. Because in the first place, I don't know shit about playing pool, and next, I would very much want to capture the moments but it wasn't possible cause nikon ain't with me on that very friday. and furthermore, I promised shadowcat a meet up. I am very pleased that I came across a book clearance sale at Suntec's tower 3's (if i'm not mistaken), entertainment atrium!!! All, let me say it again, ALL books were selling at $6 each.
Being a not-so-much-actually-of-a-hardcore-fan-of-jodi-picoult, I spotted her name like IMMEDIATELY from the level I was at. I grabbed Preta's arm, and squeezed them like it was my stress-relief sponge. Within split seconds, I got The Pact, The Tenth Circle, Plain Truth, My Sister's Keeper (and this list can go on...), in my hands! So how much has it cost me? $24 only laaaa! Well if you compare them prices to the original sale out there at Kino and Borders, you would think thrice (as for me) to get 2 books at once. So. Get my point?
But. No.
I dropped Jodi's books slowly, not reluctantly, one by one on to the already-there castle of books. I think I did look like a retard. Because I saw Haruki's pieces, one after another, lying flat, looked too inviting, waiting, screaming, book language-ing me "PICK ME, PICK ME! WEE!". And so I did pick them up. Two of them. The other two that joined my collection along was memoirs of a geisha and china dolls. I am completely satisfied. It's still twenty four dollars man!
And last night, i watched 'Alone'!!! A great great great watch. Simple storyline, concise and so translucent. A simple twist, something no one would expect, yet the story has the ability to make you understand sooner or later. For my case, I understood it too well. HA HA. Okay, that was a bit of a boast, but man! It's such a worthwhile watch. I can watch it again.
And this I must mention. Manymanymanymany heartfelt thanks to SPACER dearest, for the concern and messages you got there for me. It was truly a look-through-it-again kind of feeling the moment I completed reading your texts. It was certainly an excellent start to my morning; in contrast with how grotesque last night was ended. And Worm, I don't blame you at all okay. You must know this again, I'm not putting any fault on anybody. I appreciate your consecutive thoughtful concerns. And not forgetting the many i love yous.
And as Tee ever said, time heals pain, and faith will heal the rest.
I've been a religious believer of that ever since, and alhamdulillah, the unknown front(s) are starting to unfold, little by little.
so be gentle when you handle me.
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Thursday, 2 August 2007
evaporated like the tail end of a sweet dream.
I feel...like a jelly.
green and transparent, wobbly and cold.
Today was queer and sultry.
Striped red and white, I schlepped one pathway after another; with probably something in disguise ahead of my view. I don't know.
I knew something was wrong with me, because all I could think about was chocolate cakes and how foolish I'd been to buy all those unnecessary necessities, expensive clothes hanging limp in my closet like fish. I was, and I am, still, tired.
I was supposed to be having the time of my life.
I was supposed to be the envy of thousands of other college girls just like me all over singapore; and if not; my hometown.
Really.
someone's bound to hear my cry. Anybody, ey?
I'm tired.
I'm tired.
I'm tired.
I'm tired.
I'm...just, tired.
I enjoyed the whole day. I enjoy being around the indons, the one and solely mapleh, the mondok, the rockstar, and the honey.
I enjoy laughing till it hurts the uterus ( SERIOUSLY!), I enjoy arguing with the mapleh. I enjoy saying the mapleh looked "hot" with his nerd specs on, I enjoy being the shortest among all of you most of ALL!! I enjoy being the only girl in the crowd when honey's not done, I enjoy being one of the 2 girls in the crowd too. I enjoy seeing Bella strut in heels. And I enjoy getting distracted in class. Manymany times.
I'm jaded. Run-down. Beat. Exhausted. Sleepy.
Still, I have to run these fingers through my hair, bring it back, and not give in.
'Cause, for once, the bed doesn't want me jumping onto it by 11p.m anymore.
I have to survive with 4a.ms now. 4a.ms and below. I'm worn out.
I'm a vegetable...
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Wednesday, 1 August 2007
heart.
it started when we were younger, you were mine.i was in love with you when we were younger, you were mine.even before, all the fame and people, screaming your name.Hmmmm.
