di balik awan.
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Monday, 23 July 2007
engulfed.
climbing out on to a narrow ledge, i seek warmth. hopefully you're done lying.
however tortuous and unfamiliar the pattern, it has always been the same. that twist of fate;
that twist of cautionary tale; it has been in these ears through and through. so through that, by the next moment, i find it all so similar and safe; sprawling beneath these feet, on the grounds i vertical myself.
none were centralised; that rare, mesmerising truth- one always seeks but seldom finds. placed myself in wonderland, obliged by the wind. nothing you do seems harmless... do sit, come together, make a turn, be with me. do not grieve, everything's over. so what would be the same... stand yourself in my fantasy. you'll probably cave in more than what i already am. that vision closes up as you slowly let it go; accompanied by how you would loosen these fists, and with a fair amount of an empty swallow; i don't know who you think i am.
have mercy.
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i simply can't put myself together to deny the weather. it is just too serene, mild, balmy and composed. so i guess times like this i should begin on school's advertising and creative writing assignment. 4000 words to be produced at a time like this. if i could wish for more, i'd want it to be snowing. but i want to be a more appreciative & thankful being. won't ask for more. rainy days like these would just do it.
anyway, today, the pair out of many others in class, (mondok and me) agreed that, jude law looks blissfully retarded in that dunhill advertisement. his face looked exceptionally dumb that it brings the whole ad down; and i couldn't do anything except to rock the whole class and made them laugh along too. (well of course, mondok did the talking and presenting. but the 'retarded' idea was my retarded idea!)
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Sunday, 22 July 2007
mommy.
by 7.45am today, i was 'properly' awake and on my feet. had a very short shower, not sufficient to clear last night's sleep's after effect. here's the reason why: i was extremely excited because it's a sunday and i was allowed to skip sunday school and tag ma&pa to negeri sembilan to shop for, umm...things! pa drove up all the way there, and i managed to catch a couple more winks in the car. i was the co-pilot of the day! i must mention the weather! the whole journey was accompanied by the stormy weather, it was very cold and unfriendly, yet i still love it. the dark skies were looming over the whole earth (i think), that i thought, in any minute, the world's gonna fold me in, expressways and all. we bought a great lot of things over. items were such an excellent bargain, and it's like chinatown gone half priced or more. i was very much appalled myself at how cheap-cheap the things can get. my bedroom is gonna be revamped and it'll be done by hari raya, God willing.
and my friday was very juicy. spacer and i headed to cathay to catch order of the phoenix, and let me give you this face - @.@
HAHA. show was efficient in keeping me wide awake, but ummmm. yea. i have no comments on that. Spacer's a very avid listener (avid?) and i honestly enjoyed having that petty sort-of-argument about crossing the road. HAHAH! cause it was funny la! in the end, i had to end up my hands being held and led across the road like a kid! friday was short, and we ended it off with capturing the skies cum clouds across causeway point. Spacer is a very cheerful individual. which i don't think i can ever keep such bright mood up and making it stay stagnant, not changing. that's how you are you know!
and oh anyway Mondok, thanks for the countless concerns. youre such a thoughtful skeleton i can't really trade anyone/anything for that. buy me more drinks and open many other doors for me, for us (preta, val, me, hana, UMAR??? ainsley? ummm joette; this far i think you get what i mean.) basically! HAHA!.
you really live up to the requirements of being a bell boy.
peace.
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Wednesday, 18 July 2007
The Kopi Kings.
though it was like as if the clouds were being so mournful over a death, earlier this day at chinatown, i still manage to have my fair share of fun for the day. i owe it to ashton aka mondok, hana the hip hoppish makcik and my favourite shorty, pamela anderson. had westernised
kopi-s, (hate this word) "Camwhored", and later, makcik and me headed down to Sleepy Sam's somewhere in the midst of Haji Lane. as the name suggests, we did get sleepy at Sleepy Sam's, and (hate this word again.) camwhored. when retail therapy no longer work, chilling out and having long relaxing music played, you can't help but just to feel very pampered. today was oh-so-fine.
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today's happy pill.
brother and i laughed so hard together earlier this day at two videos we stumbled upon from youtube. i wanna share it with all who visit me! HA HA. to me, it is so damn GILA i couldn't take it, i (sort of) rolled on the floor. do click and watch. because WE HAD FUN. hopefully those who had a bad day will at the very least, smile and giggle. SMILE!
oh anyway, gotta stay for a while and wait to see, what is the really funny part. the first video may seem idiotic, but listen and watch. it tickled me so much. non-malays, ummm you may/may not comprehend.
http://youtube.com/watch?v=-XKC2GrE1LI
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congratulations.
on my way to school yesterday, i thought i saw my new friend. as soon as i stepped in the train, my eyes settled on the-new-friend-lookalike. i was really damn sure that the-new-friend-lookalike looked EXACTLY like my new friend. haha. and to clear the question marks above my head, i texted my new friend. the lookalike didn't immediately reachout out for the cell phone, and nor did the original my-new-friend replied within those moments.and it turn out to be, the lookalike wasn't my new friend. lucky i didn't go say 'hi' or even, tap the lookalike's shoulder. i slept in the train, and only realised my stop when the doors were about to shut. anyway, yesterday's class was so so cool! Fortunately, i didn't skip yesterday's advertising class, cause it was so full of youthful vibe and enthusiasm! It was as if, my class was re-born. My team had Valerie, Preta, Ashton, Hana and of course me. we were supposed to work on our brains to create an advertisement on one of the so ever popular sports product. We chose 2 media placements to broadcast our ad; the print and television. everything was just so humorous and funky. i greatly enjoyed myself, even after school. after school, we stalked ashton all the way to suntec city. HA HA. that too, was crazy. oh, i forgot to mention what ashton did during our break time. he did a dinosaur-like dance to 'boogie wonderland'. and like i told him, you look so distorted, and retarded and insane. i lost control of myself yesterday (well, sort of.) and shopped.
this time with hana. yeehaa. after which, we met up with the honeybunches, Worm and Sha. got my hugs (my drugs. haha.) from them, and i'm happy!
my weekends were great too. caught transformers only last saturday, and held my own movie marathon on the following sunday. i fasted for 2 days over last week, and i'm happy. (: dismissing the fact that my pocket's really burnt, i am still satisfied.
and it's been long since i last ask my nikon out. even if it means snapping the boredom out of me, i'll do just anything to hear the CSI-like camera clicks again. well infact, it is. not another 'like' thing. it is.
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Sunday, 15 July 2007
hahahaa.
MONDOK! your post kills!
so much for having the daily dose of laughter. I totally enjoyed reading it okay!
And yeah, probably Monday, you'll have to be the ummm, shopping kaki again?
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Friday, 13 July 2007
i hope you know.
thank god, oh finally, school's more like school already. heh.
and on the other hand, my savings for july is depleting. imagine having exactly $283 gone invisibly, just like that. besides the fact that i treated myself with proper luxury only yesterday, where i really indulged in completing my objective and fulfilling these desires, i'm wondering how come nearly 300 bucks can go missing. it was just yesterday. sighs. but yeah. i gotta say thanks to ashton aka mondok, for accompanying me throughout. you were such a big help to me! lunch was entertaining, and i was kinda surprised you didn't know bugis as much as i do. HA HA. from choosing, to giving me opinions, going to and fro under the hot sun (you complain alot), and lastly, saying that loud "NO" after i complimented a reallyreallyreally-sleekdress-that-i-spotted-from-far. if only you didn't complain about how hot the sun can be at its peak, i would have gotten myself a gold Indian bangle. haha.
anyway ma's birthday's in 288 hours, and daddy's, 6days after ma's.
and to add to yesterday's contentment i 'achieved' after shopping, i am gonna watch harry next week! with my new friend! (:
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Wednesday, 11 July 2007
puppet.
i'll start with being greatful that waking up doesn't have to be noisy, hectic, and food-less. i'll begin with, being thankful that i could still talk, stand, breathe, eat, bathe and scratch.
am anticipating for tomorrow's shopping spree with mondok. hopefully bella can make it. if i could wish, i want to share this joy with everyone in the world.
and if i could inform, i wanna say that i won't and no longer give myself a damn about what your small mind cannot comprehend. if you think that way of me, i lose out to nothing. and even if i do, you and i must note that in life, you lose some, you gain some.
'cause i'm still the same old brand new.
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Monday, 9 July 2007
weight of the world.
what's happening.
each of your word;
it carries a responsibility.
if you can't summon that enough courage to
stand before the aftermath,
might as well,
spend,
gazillion braincells
before you start
opening
and
shutting
that gap.
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Saturday, 7 July 2007
conscience never fades.
Maybe I'm just living out the same old stories in and out. But you know that don't make it easier. Time will fly away with me if truth won't stop and let me see, and tell me I am to believe that you and I should never be again. I'm drowning. When the one you leave is the one thing you believe. You say goodbye when underneath's your one belief, that love rules all, conquers all. Its funny how the times that seem unbearable are the ones that you don't ever want to end. And when your childhood slips away, you find you face a brand new day and you know it can't be the same again. 'Cause when you leave you stayed in my memory. Clawing out will sometimes seem so far away. Never knowing if I'll live to see another day. Never seem to find out what to do. No one seems to tell you 'cause you're drowning.
What have I ever did to see such falsity you've given. So is it better to tell and hurt, or lie to save my face? I know I'm not deserving of your trust from you right now. But you suckers ought to GET YOUR BRAIN RIGHT. I can't believe I hold a bunch of hypocrites here, right here under my nose. Forget all the thanks that you said. I thank myself.
So take this one fallen man on his knees
and, let this beat knock his head.
Y'all didn't think that I could bump like this? Riiiiight.
Hey Miss. drama? Leave it home.
You don't know just yet what I can become of situations.
And I'm forgetting your thanks too.
I feel victorious.
See I told y'all I was gonna bump like this.
Keep my life movin'
No time for the drama
Watch me blow through them
I know I sound confident
I'm s’posed to though
Do it big
How I live
I told you so
C'mon.
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Thursday, 5 July 2007
HANDBAG.
ADVERTISING is working the kutu-s hell outta me! *kutu = hair lice.not that i have them, but. I just don't have them.and just today i discovered a hole at one of the back heels of my-just-bought-a-few-weeks-ago sandals. they are really so comfortable and loose and free-feet kind of feel, when it just had to be torn!??! is topshop kidding me?ma got it for forty nine f***ing dollars! i do not like to wear covered footwear to school. now i have to start wearing 'em again. and Bella, you didn't have to give that much laughter at my already-miserable sandals. though its funny i admit.i must've developed thorns at the back of my feet.now now, don't tell me you guys think i really have kutu-s gnawing away on my possessions. I DON'T HAVE KUTU.
Strum 3! Haha.
Corinne Bailey Nas.
Departure.
We have guitars, only.
"I'm not gonna talk to you. Shut up."
"And as Irda goes, TELL ME....TELL ME....TELL ME..."
