Friday, 27 April 2007
smooth and creamy part one
here. i deleted this post which meant to be yesterday's. requests and questions came from alba and ashton and so here it is.
well at the very least, let's just say i have to keep holding on for me. to walk this very path i couldn't seem to comprehend. because i know what i want! what i want will bring me wonders of the world. insya allah. so long as i know that life doesn't revolve around relationships, and a figure to replace a somebody. well someone ever had the cheek to say this to me, "well i guess, your life's been a bitch huh". i wonder from which angle does that bold person view life?
relationship-wise, god, i have to admit, it hasn't been a breeze. and to have at least pull through, and do justice to the heart, i give a myself a proud nod. not successful in one(a relationship) doesn't make life a bitch. HAH! if the earth cum life calls for me to be alone working this matter, then i should really go ahead. because, i've realized, if the inside is as strong as a thousand tonnes of steel, who needs a somebody? i don't need a little pick-me-up that comes in a form of a request. i can pick me, in that case. laugh or smirk all you want if you have thought that it took me almost a whole month to rejoice. but just plug this in your head. i'm honest and i know what i do. compared to some childish cheapskate casanova ways to claim your replacement. i'm proud of your masterpiece then, if you really show me that you've got a sparkling clean cleaned up attitude. when i've been chanting in head, you're just so the same.
I'm never gonna stoop so low to believe a lie. Your ego's gonna bring you down. do believe that.
Holding your head high for something so petty is just a plain-everyone-can-do. a common material.
HEY. watch me stand there watching you watching me getting what you want and i just laugh because you think your so damn cute. immature alien head.
and anyway today(27th april), i have to admit i did had funfunfunfun with my soulgriever. makcik fun. we came across many prettypretty boys. wahah. that isn't the highlight yeah. and yea, i came to find out that, ashton's not gonna be in school on the 2nd of may. that'll be total silence. nothing to crap and say lame things about. and worst is, nothing to laugh at. and today while on the way home, a beautiful chic held my arm and stopped me to ask a question. i thought i dropped something on the floor and she's returning it to me or something. but it wasn't that. she was really pleasant, and polite. a lil older than me and i remember her face. ya'll know what she asked? she asked about my soft pants. HA HA. i laughed so hard silently because i never thought such a thing would happen to me. who would be interested in looking or even, shooting a glance at me right. because i know i ain't goodlooking nor worth a glance. and so i told her where i got it from. and i could see she was satisfied and contented.
and my highlight of the day was that: i met funnyboy online through alba's msn account.
and after which, i knew how to start dreaming again.
i'm happyi'mhappyi'mhappy!
